Leonalia - Questions and Dictates

Must I forever swing on the cusp
of acceptance with
shouts and dictates filling my ears.
Is my figure the right shape?
Are my eyes the right colour?
Grayness must be covered by
hues and tints of another shade.
Am I the person I want to be?
Am I too old?
Eating right and exercising will dispel
age, won't it.
If I think young, I will be young.
Meanwhile, my own enquiries about me are
drowned out in this onslaught of
pedantic rules and unpalatable
declarations.
Poisonous questions and statements
scream out the venom,
every day, from a bulging media serpent.
Ideas that are tyrannically
dictated by fat pay checks
in the hands of thin fashion editors.
And so I swing between the
me I should become and the real one.
My answer is
I will settle for me.
Myself, my inner light, my spirit.
my essential soul.
For isn’t in the end
the only one worth my acceptance,
me?
So then in the meantime
until a new me comes along
I guess, I will have to continue
to just keep on being
fabulous!"

SF 2006